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Hello I'm sucha loner.


Kay so basically Im feeling real bad and down now. It's just screw every single thing.

Have u ever felt that you're like bothering somebody whenever u talk to them ? You felt like as though you're a nuisance , you're annoying that somebody, you're like engaging in that conv while that somebody gives u a feeling tat he or she doesn't feel like caring or can't be bothered at all?

It sucks. Sucks terribly.

U went online this morning , didn't text me. Not a single morning MSG etc etc.dont even bother continuing the our conv when I text u. If Dw talk thn say luh , don't leave me hanging down thr and waiting like an idiot , staring and looking at my bloody phone just to wait for ur reply when you're online thn you went offline.

You know how much it hurts when u realised that he or she doesn't even bother to reply u at all. Not even a "k" or "lol"bit "sry ttyl".

Fml

So im gonna switch off my phone.
And I bet nobody's gonna reply my text a usual, and what's more, not even realising that I'm switching off my phone on purpose. Tweeting bout them on purpose, tweeting on twitter to let them know that I'm gonna switch off my phone cos they didn't reply my text. Making it so obvious and no one wen bother caring at all.

Yes, nuff said.

I don't wanna care anymore.
Find me a nuisance right.
Thn don't talk to me lor
Best don't come find me if u need any help or whn you're bored cos I'm not gonna entertain u anymore.
Kbye.

寂寞瘋了

Crazy Lonely.


Gonna rush this post. Hope I'll finish blogging by 8pm.

Today, 21/12/12, this morning , 11.33 am , i realised , i found out ... that...


I felt sad. Felt lonely. Felt alone. Felt weird. Felt.. idk.. mixed feelings.

I realised that im actually being quite a loner... im like always leading a boring lifestyle and stuffs..

Was supposed to go Tamp to purchase a prezzie for my mum with Fel dear. She cmi at the very last minute.. couldn't blame her though, at least she tried a very best. So i was like, uhm... stunned and dk what to do. felt so confusing at tat moment... i really really wanna go out and all. So i went to take a look at my phone contact, to see if i can ask anybody out instead, so i called like almost all the girls i can find, and they all didnt answer my call... ok luh, i only called 3 girls cos my contact only has 3 ppl that i think will be able to make it. But ended up.... or maybe its cos my phone contact has less people...

But right at that moment, i felt despair, i was desperate, i felt annoyed, confused, i just felt like flunking everything and all... idk why.... i felt lonely...


Have u ever felt so lonely that when u look into ur friendlist, or by using ur brain, u tried hard to think of a person whom u can ask out. NO, NOT EVEN ONE I CAN THINK OF. NOT EVEN ONE I CAN ASK OUT. NOT EVEN ONE I CAN FIND. pathetic aint I?


I thought to myself.. what have i been doing for the past two years? like... idk.. apart from my cliques, i only talk to my classmates ( i dont hang out with them). yes, we're bonded and stuffs.. but we dont really... idk... i... knvm. Cont . and my dearies , mainly those few boys from st pats hur. yes we do meet out and stuffs , theyre awesome ppl too. but ... although we're close, they still dont belong to my circle of frens in sch.. so yeap. And i always have this feeling that those ppl in my school, they dislike me. idk why. maybe i think too much hur.
So yeap... move on..

Next year, i'll be greeted by a new group of classmates, new environment and stuffs... yknow when the class list was out, i felt so... mixed feelings.. yes again. i dont even feel like bonding with them and so, tbh, the only thing i felt relieved was that i still have Nian , Georgie , Shijia , Doreen and Marcus with me. like these are the few ppl i think i will only be talking to.... i felt so sian ok. And i bet those ppl that saw my name on the class list, they're like 'oh god.. why is she in our classs? sian.' imma trying not to have negative thoughts, but after those stuffs that happened for the past two years, i.. really have no comments.. ok nvm.

Cont. yknow , i kinda felt grateful and stuffs, like although im sucha fucked up person, theres still ppl who will always be thr for me and all.... like yeah.. thrs still ppl who likes me, appreciate me, ppl who tolerate my annoying and nonsensical nonsense. Not many, but imma con-tempted alr.


Yknow how much i wished for / i wished and hope that Augustine, Nich , Nic , Eken and many more are in my school, like my life wont be so... idk how to describe .... but yeah, theyre awesome, why cant they be in my sch? Whenever i hear auggie talking bout his classmates and all, i'll feel jealous... like.. omg... so fun... :| i want that kind of school life!

so well, i guessed that i'll be idling away for the next two years then?

Ytd, i did sth meaningful , well at least to me...

They say the world will / might end today, so yeap . being kanchiong and stuffs, i went to write 21 letters too all of my close frens. i didnt write for all, ( a very big sorry for gwy and megabangs clique friends cos i didnt include yall ) so i only wrote to those whom i felt that i will really really die with big regrets if i did not tell them my last words / how much they meant to me . Those peeps include ; All peeps from 'Awesome Dearies' whatsapp grp, (Nian, Marc , Augustine , Shawn , Clemeny , Cheryl) , my awesome 'family' ,(junzhen , alex , Felix) , my ultimate bffffffffffff (Christ , Fel) , dearies (Nic , Nich , Brandy,  Ekiu , Lim) awesome blackshot mates too! , and lastly, ken rahul 'daniel' and jseow. Those few peeps that ive been talking to recently. Really really dont wanna lose them uh , nicee nicee people.
 I felt really good after reading those replies from them. I felt appreciated, felt acknowledged when they said 'Hey Dearie, right back at you' haha really :') thanks all (: and for those that assured me saying the world wont end.. i mean, who know whether it will be ending..


so its like 8++ alr, and imma late . join me and @ Lovelife  by watching this video and spread the love (:

Vanilla Ice-cream

怎么停留回忆总是出现在我想起之后

hiie peeps (: today was sort of a fun day. heh went to work today as jasmine couldnt come, so i sort of take over her today. I was so glad that i came today, cos Zack was present! heh. so i was like damn shocked and stuffs cos ytd he didnt come, and so i tot he's still overseas. omg so the moment i see him, i was like 'FK OMG ZACK OMG YOURE HERE!!! ' thn i went over to 'pedo' him, hahaahaha kay i missed zack soo soo much :C 

so went playground with the kids while i spammed jseow's phone with messages, hoping he will wake up and text mee and all he said was 'yknow i still wanna sleep??' so i was like 'kay :C' but inside me , i felt like

hahahahah kay

so had a boring day out with the kids. zack and yorick went crazy and they just went super duper hyper while me chased them all around. then yihang sort of got bullied by shiyin,cos shiyin dont allow yihang to lay soccer with them. hahaha so yeap yihang , zack and yorick played tgt in the end. was amazed at how yorick and zack can be so close as brothers. they kissed and hugged each other and stuffs, like im not even tat close to my bro. its weird! 

hahaha so after lunch, i went to take care of the p1s. They did science and colourings while i slack down thr. 

then after teabreak, had a chat with cheeyun. was gossiping bout some couples from her school and predicting when they will break up and stuffs  hahah kay i know we're dam bad.

so the conv linked to 'him' and i felt a sudden tinge of sadness.... :| and i thought tat... yeah it had been so long ever since we met and stuffs.. but i told myself, no matter wat happen, life still has to go on..

so after the break i gotta teach the p1s art and craft. kay omg i thought it would be fun but it turned out as a disaster instead.  everything is just plain messy and the kids were dam noisy. i had a hard time asking them to shuttup and rushing them to complete their work. omg dam annoying can. my energy was drained out too! the moment they finished their work , i heaved a sigh of relieved :D

like.... yeah xD

gonna end my post with a song and a photo heh. imma addicted to it haha. 

Vanilla ice cream (:

its Lollipop F!!

haha kay bye

till then,

shimii

∞strengthxbelievexlove∞

记得那天抬头望着天空
收拾天地间许下的承诺
请你相信我 当你伤心难过
我会在你身后 陪在你左右
伤心会没收 失落会赶走
路途再遥远 你还是有我
请不要再害怕 我已经不害怕
永远是 My Dear Friend
不会分你我他
即使做着不同的梦
还是珍惜过去的所有


I remember the day I looked up at the sky

Pick up the promises made between heaven and earth
Please believe me, when you're sad
I will accompany you around behind you
The sad will confiscate the loss would drive away
Road No matter how far you still have me
Do not be afraid I have not scared
Forever My Dear Friend
No distinction between you and me, he
Even doing a different dream
Still cherish the past all



screw translate

So today's blog post will be about my fav idol. Prince from JPM (:


So here's a picture of him ;

yeap thats prince ^~^

so i got introduced to him in 2011, i was pri 5 that time. And it was through a show called ' The legend of brown sugar Chivalries'

And he caught my eye xD

heh aint he cute :3 so i went to search on him and found out that he was in a Taiwanese band group called 'Lollipop'

and found out that hes in this variety show from channel V , taiwan

so yeap , some photos of JPM

prince and his kick 

prince <3

His mini movie , acting as this guy called wang zi yi

cover of album (:

i would really like a kiss from him ^~^

his fabulous muscle :D

2012 hito music awards ^^

kay this is cute xD

JPM with Andy, their manager

promoting 'Love Life'

prince playing piano, or isit a keyboard?

so u seee i really really like this guy alot, everything he do just really make my heart melts. i really love him alot, i cant imagine life without prince. Yknow , although i like other male artist too, but in the end, its only prince and yeah only him who still manages to capture my heart. it has been 5 year alr. 5 years ever still i get tto know him . and im still loving him. from a young and innocent boy in lollipop, and now hes like a guy in JPM. he grew up well . well aint it cool, like he named himself prince, and he does really resembles a prince and he does have the prince look and stufs. yes he is my prince charming, i'll always support him all the way and love him whole heartly. although i mahy not be his number one fan that goes really really super duper mega uber crazy over him, but hes my number one idol. number one idol and no one can replace him. NO ONE. so yeap lastly. i'll end this post with a photo and a music video. JPM's new album , '365 days' is out and their songs are mega nice. the hit song is '365 days' , lyrics written by prince. yeah I LOVE YOU PRINCE! hehehehe 

featuring, prince and his brother, modi (:

heh and this music video of 365 ;

oh and photo credits from tumblr, baidu and google. byeee

till then,
Shimii